Lean into Love

Lean into Love

Being a parent isn't easy.
(today it’s too many missing assignments)

It’s so easy to spin out of control
in the worry,
in the lack of control,
in the fear of what ifs...

Stop.
Just stop.

Control is a grand illusion.
What greater good is this fear serving?
(Well, let me tell you what my ego says...feelings of fear expose my insecurities and fear that I haven’t done a good enough job raising you, damn it.)

And my ego will manifest another yelling match with no rules, respect or winner.

And my heart will ache with the hurt feelings, negative self talk and another bruised experience on both sides. And how do I undo all that hurt?
For my child?
For myself?

Take a breath and bring me back to love in this moment.
I am learning to lean into the power of this vast love I hold for my child.
And in his reflection of wonder and learning; I am reminded...

Release the fear.
And need for control.
Allowing my love to radiate
so he can feel it.
And lean into love too.